September 2021
The 5th.
First week of school is fun, but exhausting. We have new routines, new commitments, new unknowns. It’s going to take me a bit to settle into this. I might need to hole up for while.
The 6th.
I did a scary thing and invited a few more people into my project as I build it. Another round, another layer of fear. I’m proud of myself for sending those invitations.
The 7th.
I’m really grateful to get to focus and think and build today. I feel like I’m getting back into the currents of creative life. The ebbs and flows are becoming less surprising.
Yesterday I was experiencing enormous doubt as I shared it with a few folks. Today I’m back to feeling confident in my work no matter who participates. Funny how that works.
The 10th.
I feel a bit stuck in my environment right now. But I remember how much I needed to come home and be still and have things be the same just a few weeks ago. Travel disrupts our patterns. We need pattern disruption for insight. But we also need to synthesize and integrate.
I need some pattern disruption right now.
The 30th.
I haven’t written in my journal much for a couple of weeks. I’ve been trying to focus on “real” writing, whatever that is.
Why am I always so tired when it’s time to do anything creative? If creativity is so natural and central to what it means to be human, why do I feel too exhausted to do it? It’s so much easier to do literally anything else.